愛の力

2010-08-09T20:33:00.000-07:00

This is the third time im facing this kind of situation and i really hate. sigh* how pathetic i am, crying over a girl when i noe i dun stand a chance in the first place.
Guess im gonna burn all my money through initial d soon...

Regrets.

2010-08-05T07:00:00.000-07:00

im sad cos u make it so obvious tat u care for him even when i noe i dun stand a chance from the very beginning.

Saddist

2010-07-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

Life is harsh.
When you are left alone, you can do all sort of stuff.
But, you will never be happy.

My heart ache for you.I want to share your pain.

2010-07-03T07:59:00.001-07:00

Since this is a abandoned blog.i shall dump all my real feeling here.
If you happened to find this, you are about the read my life.

B4 sec 2 , i watched Initial D the live movie and fell in love with car ever since.
, thus leading to me addicted to playin the arcade game. After school , i would just run home, changed my clothes , take some of my father money , then stay from 2pm to 5-6pm jus keep playin initial d only. forced to be challenged by gangster in the middle of 2-3am.Now im jus a retired oldbird , who still love the sense of speed.

i fell in love 3 times in my life, 1 in each school. 1 in primary, 1 in secondary and 1 in poly now.Currently the poly 1 give me the biggest heartache. cos she is so weak and vulnerable tat makes me wanna take care of her forever but she always rely on others and its always nt me.Once she said we could even become a married couple, tat really really made me very happy, even if it was short lived.yet she always said we are close, but hw close can we be, when im nt the 1 at ur side when u hav problems ? even ur girl friends noe later than him. this shows hw high he is in ur heart.

i duno since when i believed i hav multiple personalities, one which desires companionship, one which wans to be left alone, one which desires to make every1 around him happy, one which wans to piss ppl off, one which simply jus wan to die due to the sadness in the heart( i teared while typin this 1.).therefore i linked some of them tgt. i pissed ppl off is not only to tell them i wan to be left alone, sometimes im also tryin to test them, wad if im like this, wad will u do? blacklist me ? ignore me forever ? hate me ? why i wan to make ppl happy is cos ur wif the rest of the gang. tats why if i can make the rest smile, i would definitely see ur smile too and ur smile always put a smile on my face too, therefore making me wan companionship.the last 1 i always prefered nt to talk abt it since it can take forever to type it all out.i was nvr liked, best friended. im such a loner tat even i decide to cancel my relationship wif my parents if possible and jus travel around the globe wif my feets and live freely.

I say im a cloud, cos i appear and disappear without any1 noticing.Where is my destination, no1 will noe. The only clue is tat if u folo the wind, u will always find me there looking at u.

2010-05-25T22:13:00.000-07:00

I want to walk the path of solitude... but another part of me wants to hold her hand and walk together quietly. It is never fun to be alone, but the freedom I've gained is immeasurable.Sigh* the dilemma.

Freedom.Does it comes with a big loss?

I'm back !!!

2010-05-10T19:41:00.000-07:00

Sigh~ why am i back ? cos a certain person asked me to write a blog which lead me to dig back my old rusty blog hahahahah...

Seriously why am i so emo at night. I guess it is because of the stupid moon. Chinese believe Yang energy come from the sun, while Yin comes from the moon. My element is fire anyway.

烟花易冷　is so nice hahahah ~

アイシテル is the first japanese word i learnt back in the old days. makes me feel so old liao...

2008-02-16T19:45:00.000-08:00

my heart hurts , hurts so much it more painful than ppl chopping off my limbs.
Am i born to be a loner , sometimes i wish time could just turn back.

2008-02-01T07:12:00.000-08:00

So freaking long never change blog skin le . i cannot believe that it took me 2 hour !!!!!
Anyway , 2dae was scary ... i was like actually in charge of the field and there was thunder and
lightning , i was the tallest guy around there , so i was thinkin i haven wrote my will siar~~

luckily it was changed to indoor, well quite indoor.

argh canot tahan le even when typin this my com is laggin, believe it or not it took me 10 min to type all this,. wooot~ break record ~ longest post !!!!!!

2008-01-11T23:24:00.000-08:00

yesterday ug day , so long nvr hot before , then shout shout until need take 5 strepsil ...... maybe i take too much le hor
^^

2007-12-26T19:12:00.000-08:00

1 m0nth le , no update , this 1 is for keeping this blog alive de, i nth to say abt my life to sian le
see ya

2007-12-03T03:16:00.000-08:00

back from Malaysia trip recently quite an excitement

wan to know more call those number ..... nah jking jus ask me via msn or in person lazy to type

bloodydevil92@hotmail.com

2007-11-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

erm..... u all should listen to 牛仔很忙 cos is abt a stupid cowboy being busy
its a pile of bullshit but the rhythm is gd lor

the song bit of ..... wad do u call tat ....erm

wierd feelin tat u will start to dance
heheh

tats wad i get when i listen

2007-10-09T22:15:00.000-07:00

er.... here is a joke ...... wahahaha ?

kidding here is the real deal

i lose the game damn it !!!!

ahhh the dam is crushing us

lets play crash nitro racer

be a racer in the future

sorry but i am back from the future

my name is beck

.......zzzzzzzz........

2007-09-07T05:58:00.000-07:00

long time no see thought u mati ....

2007-08-07T02:15:00.000-07:00

sad....
seriously sad....
i have no future....
just the path of death....
walkin down the road....
saw my other self....
lookin at the ground....
with eyes full of loneliness...

2007-07-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

the song that best describe me i think haha~

一路向北

by: 周杰伦

后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面
全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面
全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
方向盘周围
回转着我的后悔
我加速超越
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧我伤你几回
停止狼狈就让错纯粹

2007-06-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

who am i .....
what am i doing in this world ....
what is i .....
lots of question but no answer ....
why are we here .....
what should we be doing here ....
what is life ....
what we live for .....

why i feel so negative .....

2007-06-15T01:21:00.000-07:00

yahooooo~~ hoooo~~~
long time no post tot u mati wahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!
been almost the whole month or is it 2 nvm
alot happen in this holiday first time stay up until 4 then go home is like

whooo!!!!! wooootttttt~~~

goin mac at 3 in the mornin is sweet i tell ya all

..................

sigh ........

sigh.........

sigh.........

heheheh lonely as hell wahahahaha

2007-04-21T05:50:00.000-07:00

long time no post cos havin a 2 to 3 weeks break to study

actually if i *could study long not at 3-2 le lor....

anyway NATIONAL CROSS FINALLY OVER LE !!!!!!!!!!!!

now is it my turn to show all i got in the national track n field

woAr~~~~ RaAooOOOOooooOOoOooooooooOOOOr~~~~~~~~~

cheng it up !~ CHENG IT UP !!~~ SHOW NO MERCY !!!!! ~~~~~

campus superstar

2007-04-14T06:37:00.000-07:00

2dae go toa pah yao support freddie , vivian,jia qi.chan dong's bro
even onli jia qi got in but all sing veri well

JUDGES KAYU!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid duno how to apreciate their talent........

anyway dun be sad to those tat didn't get in.....

erm.... jy for next time....then jia qi , erm..... jiayou ba !!! heheheh

2007-04-11T07:36:00.000-07:00

found a interesting signature recently

i think is kind of kool lor

2007-04-09T21:09:00.000-07:00

2dae at class siao de .... laugh until lik bo tai zi 1 teacher come in stare at me say nth

like i possesed lik tat .... can imagine or not

now i olso forgot wad so funni le

i really mus go do operation ar

request for upgrade from pentium 1 to pentium 4 ar

( memory )

music !!!!!!!!!

2007-04-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

music is now available

dogfight ( in japanese 1 ) initial d 4
over the rainbow ( initial d arcade stage ver 3 )

pls take ur time and enjoy ( try lar .... )

l0ts 0f wi3rd 5tuFf happ3nin

2007-04-07T00:07:00.000-07:00

help me make the blog better sometimes the stuff and words jus minmizes help me solve tis prob by ~ in total HELP ME ~~~~

still in beta version ... any problems pls raise

the timin and signature all got prob

ver. 0.01

chatbox error

2007-04-06T07:55:00.000-07:00

u mus change to other places than the word u type in the chatbox will appear wierd error

test post

2007-04-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

testing post